If you look for the positive things in life; you will find them.

Today was a day spent mostly blinded by my weariness and moroseness.  I trudged through the day and got home, where it slowly, but surely, got better.

I took the dogs out, and took a nap, shutting out the world. I slept, and I slept.  Tyler came home after work, with flowers and fried chicken.   We ate dinner, then we went to lay down for a bit before he had to get ready for his show tonight.  I fell back to sleep.  I woke up, brewed some iced tea, baked some peanut butter, chocolate, and walnut cookies, and made some lunches.  I opted out of rocking tonight to nap and bake cookies.  I also had some potty training successes with Panda today, so that was a positive.

I could have slept for many more hours, which tends to happen when I'm in a funk, but I had to force myself out of it so I could do something productive to start to feel a little bit positive.

Life is never easy.   I have nearly everything I've ever wanted, but all of those things take hard work and effort to keep sustainable, which, you never consider when you're dreaming about it happening.  So, as happy as I am most of the time, sometimes, because I put a lot on my plate, it can get to me, and I end up feeling a little negative.

"It hurts to find out that what you wanted doesn't match what you dreamed it would be."

But that doesn't mean it isn't all worth it.